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Tuesday, May 6
I don't know what you could possibly expect under this condition.So, y'all already know what happened. There were reasons I suppose, ones that made sense. Well, I feel, even knowing such, upset, and I am actually having a hard time. He made the world light up, he made everything better. I trusted him like I have never trusted anyone, and I guess, I just didn't expect it. I said what I said to him, hoping to work out what had been going on, but realistically, I just wasn't making him as happy as he was making me.
And even though for a while it will take some time, I will be okay. Hearts are strong, as strong as you want them to be. And this isn't the first time it's happened by any means. I was okay before I met him, and now that we are done with this chapter in our lives, I will take what I have learned and be better than before.
Thank you for all you have done, and I mean that in the most sincere manner one could mean it. You have helped me in more ways than can be counted.
I seem to have a lot going on. Not that I am saying, oh woe is me, listen to my problems, but if I seem down, it may not be just him. There are things that even he doesn't know, things I wouldn't tell anyone, because with what has happened to me in the past, there is way I can trust anyone 100%, although some one, does have a good 99% in them.
Things that don't make sense, will become clear at some point, but perhaps it take a bit of rain to wash the paint away.
"Still we bumble our way
through life's crazy labyrinth.
Barely knowing left from right
nor right from wrong.
And the best that we can do
is hope a blue bird
will sing his song...
as we stumble along."
-The Drowsy Chaperone-11:17 PM  
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About Me
I'm Bonnie. I'm a lover and a fighter. I have trust issues. I love to have fun. I am not quite up to par in anything. Oh, well. I'll try /almost/ anything at least once. I can't swim well. I love music. I love the smell of books. I am green. I'm in love. I play video games, like all the time. I'm addicted to the computer. I love my friends. I'm not a good person. I lie, and I am way too stubborn. I don't think before I speak. I actually DO care about Darfur. I want to help people. I love life. I have problems, and I know that. I won't tell you I understand if I don't. Life is hard, but people can make it easier. I believe that if we all did one good deed a day, everyone's lives would be easier. I want to make changes in the world for good. I can take you to another place, and point of view without meaning to. I do value the opinions of others. What you think about me DOES make a difference. I love animals. I love one-of-a-kind jewelry. I'm easy to please, and easy to piss off. Get to know me. Oh, and I'm Jewish. I know who I am. You don't need to tell me. I'm not a good person, I constantly cut down everything other people say, I have an arrogant air to me, and I think I know everything. I'm trying to change. So, please, let me take it a day at a time, and stop telling me how terrible I am. I can't take it anymore. K THANKS BYE.
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