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Thursday, August 23
Meh.
Listening to; Boys and Girls by Blaqk Audio
I think I can truly say that I have never felt as empty as I have these past few days. It's actually quite odd...I've been on vacation in Ocean City for the past 4 days, which over all has been pretty fun, with the exception of one person bringing down every good mood I've attempted to fake to allow my family to have fun. I'm not always the nicest person, actually, I'm never a very nice person. As such, I only have a handful of friends. The few friends I have, I like to think are close to me and vise versa. Lately one of my friends has been going through something. What that actually is, I am not entirely sure. Yes, I have my ideas, but I think it would be a bit too pretentious to assume that I am correct. As the days during the Vacation went on I noticed that he was becoming more and more secretive twords me. Getting on my computer all the time to do something, texting from across the room. Anytime anyone would say anything to him, he would cast himself into a corner and refuse to eat or talk to anyone. I thought that this particular person and I were close friends; the kind who could tell each other everything. Apparently...that assumption wasn't correct on his part. Maybe...I am a bit too pushy when I try to understand what's wrong with him, but it's really only because when I try to help...he pushes me away and shuts me out.
As if I didn't already have enough going through my mind right?
On a lighter papernote, I did have a smashing time in ocean city, when I wasn't around this certain person. The first day I got to go into the ocean. Painful, but very fun none the less. The rest of the time was pretty much just chill time, nothing too mentionable up until last night. My mom, dad, and I went to an amazing Japanese restaurant, Yokozuna. It's was absolutely amazing. I'll upload pictures eventually. This afternoon we went shopping at the Tanger Outlets. Never have a gotten so much in one day.
Blarg.
Tired.
Bed.2:55 AM  
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About Me
I'm Bonnie. I'm a lover and a fighter. I have trust issues. I love to have fun. I am not quite up to par in anything. Oh, well. I'll try /almost/ anything at least once. I can't swim well. I love music. I love the smell of books. I am green. I'm in love. I play video games, like all the time. I'm addicted to the computer. I love my friends. I'm not a good person. I lie, and I am way too stubborn. I don't think before I speak. I actually DO care about Darfur. I want to help people. I love life. I have problems, and I know that. I won't tell you I understand if I don't. Life is hard, but people can make it easier. I believe that if we all did one good deed a day, everyone's lives would be easier. I want to make changes in the world for good. I can take you to another place, and point of view without meaning to. I do value the opinions of others. What you think about me DOES make a difference. I love animals. I love one-of-a-kind jewelry. I'm easy to please, and easy to piss off. Get to know me. Oh, and I'm Jewish. I know who I am. You don't need to tell me. I'm not a good person, I constantly cut down everything other people say, I have an arrogant air to me, and I think I know everything. I'm trying to change. So, please, let me take it a day at a time, and stop telling me how terrible I am. I can't take it anymore. K THANKS BYE.
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